A LONELY FRIENDSHIP DAY
It’s the time i realized that friends were really not existing in my life wondering why i am lost & sad????Why am i cursed so bad???? when i see people go8ing out with friends .. i quietly sit & moan my tears roll down without making me realize that i am dreaming of something which i may not deserve or you can even say i didn’t try….. There is something i did when even i had friends , i just waited for them to give me time & now i know their was my mistake…. Now i think i should have even done the same calling or taking only when i was needed … Expecting them to be their when i wanted them was stupidity!!!!. people say friends are the strength of a human being but i never found that strength within me.. i talk to every one& smile & may seem carefree .. But wish one could become a friend to my heart not to my look’s or for the money i have….
It was FRIENDSHIP DAY again the day of my grief ….. people wish i wish them back but i guess this is my expectation for the day.. wanting to go out feel free have fun take picture’s treasure them, add memories to life, talk to them, i guess getting this one must be the really lucky or blessed…. I waited all day for my friend to come with a hope of making the day special i got her a blue friendship band, a blue greeting card (as blue was her favorite color) ,a book that she wanted from a long time…. In my excitement forgot to have lunch waiting for her didn’t even realize i slept on the couch ….. when i got up it was 5:30pm.. still hoped she would show up.. wanted to make the day special for her… but unfortunately now it was 7pm & i knew she wouldn’t come… my grief took over my head now the only thing i could do was cry, cry & cry… The gifts i got were dumped into the wardrobe as it dose not make me feel guilty of not doing anything for her or not even meeting up… this day meant a lot to me now i guess i would never celebrate it as i was completely shattered &lost… the day spent waiting & ended crying…. If you got friends treasure them give them all the time you can …. Because now you may not feel how much it hurts but when your lonely you will realize it … take care of every friend you have……
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