HOLDING MYSELF

Seeing the pain in your eyes as you go away from me we both know its just for a while , holding myself on the threshold of the house watching you with my numb eyes , praying your journey would be safe & sound, asking you the same thing a million times ”BABY WHEN WILL YOU COME BACK” i  see you smile at my restlessness … the only thing you say “I AM NOT GOING AWAY FROM YOU, I WILL BE HERE IN YOUR HEART” makes me smile for a while yet somewhere i know i am going to miss your  presence & even you know it well … you come close to me hold me in your arms , trying to calm me down … convince me  that its  not going to be long , you say you will call me every hour , you say you will take care  of yourself… my heart quietly listens to all the things you say, listing to your heart  i find my self safe, asking myself how will i manage the days without you …???? Then i heard you say “BABY EVEN I AM GOING TO MISS YOU THE SAME WAY” at that time  holding my emotions i let him go .. knowing he would return soon convincing myself  ,i get back to my day as usual it was… trying to do the work but yet see the cell a hundred times as if you would call… as if you would say “HONEY I AM BACK HOME” & i would just jump around.. thinking all these my day passed , as the night reached its peak i quietly stared at the moon trying to see if i could see him, i know it was a little over job yet this is LOVE MY FRIEND no matter what !!!!you just want that person to be around… at last i put myself on the bed it seemed like the BED OF THORN’S .. holding myself thinking of you at last i found a dream full of  you….